Learning to swim at 38.

That’s right, I am learning to swim at 38 years of age! I don’t normally do new year resolutions but this year I set myself the challenge of learning to swim. I was so scared. I was that scared, I got in the water (which was an achievement in it’s self! My arms starting shaking when I was clinging on to the noodle. A noodle, in case you don’t know, is a long bending float. I have just one fear (a fear I can beat) and that is water. I am petrified of it. Having a shower isn’t easy, neither…

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My anxieties over the last few months and the changes I have made.

I haven’t been around social media for the past few months. I took a complete break. My anxieties were too high to think properly. I get these stages when I am on a roll, I feel happy, positive and loving life, then bam… I start that slow spiral down and down very quickly. I keep smiling and act as normal as I can at work and around my kids. Well as normal as I can, I get snappy and my girls know I am not good. That in turn makes me feel bad because I shouldn’t be snappy. I shouldn’t…

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Why it is okay to relapse with anxiety

I am struggling to write this. I am gutted, I truly thought after 2 weeks being off anxiety medication that I was beating it. I had a reaction to Citalopram (the old meds I was on), I started these at Christmas but they were causing daily banging headaches which would lead into migraines. Yes I wasn’t snappy or tired or grumpy, but I certainly wasn’t me. After the doctors gave me beta blockers to stop the migraines I suffered with vertigo and had to come off all meds completely. That was horrendous – I was so ill. Truth is –…

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