I haven’t been around social media for the past few months. I took a complete break. My anxieties were too high to think properly.
I get these stages when I am on a roll, I feel happy, positive and loving life, then bam… I start that slow spiral down and down very quickly. I keep smiling and act as normal as I can at work and around my kids.
Well as normal as I can, I get snappy and my girls know I am not good. That in turn makes me feel bad because I shouldn’t be snappy. I shouldn’t shut my husband out and avoid talking at work if I don’t have too.
I have been back to the see my GP, he has put me on Amitriptyline in hope it can steady my mood and reduce my tension headaches and migraines which we are all convinced is caused by my mood.
My back has also been playing up, my back really doesn’t like those little chairs in Year 1. I have been off work for a few days while the Chiropractor works his magic.
I have recently been reflecting on what could be causing my mood changes this time, and what I can do to keep myself on a more positive mindful approach.
- I have reduced my caffeine intake and gone caffeine free in Tea and coffee.
- I have increased my water intake. I am so bad at drinking water.
- I have also reduced my alcohol intake, alcohol doesn’t agree with my medication which is a bonus. One JD and coke is enough.
- I brought a book weeks ago which has just been sitting on my bedside cabinet, I have read a few pages but now I am determined to read the whole book. Every evening before bed I am going to settle down and read.
By making these small changes I am hoping I am starting to listen to my body. I think I have eaten far too much junk food, drank too much caffeine and neglected my body over the last few months.
Now is the time to get back to looking after me.