Do you know how important it is to talk to someone?
The other day I was at work feeling overwhelmed. Just suddenly everything got to be, feeling tired, my workload and the difficulties I’m having with LB, her behaviour and emotions are all over the place.
I could feel myself mentally sliding down that invisible slippery wall, the one where the hope of being able to stop yourself from falling flat on your face was a 99% possibility without help,
I wanted to pretend I was sick so I could go home. I felt useless, physically sick and alone.
I forced myself to stay at work. I put on that smile type grin showing everyone I was fine, no one needed to ask how I was, they could see I was fine.
After a horrific morning of walking around feeling like crap but pretending to the world that I was happy, it was lunch time. I wasn’t particularly hungry but I made myself sit in the staff room and eat. I knew if I didn’t eat I would feel worse.
While I was in there I could quite clearly hear other staff member saying what a awful morning they had had, how they felt exhausted and flat out. they felt like crap too. I just blurted out how inadequate I was feeling in my job and how as a mum I had a bad morning with LB.
I suddenly felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders talking to people who understood (ish) how I was feeling, that I was wasn’t alone and that actually it’s normal to have times when we are feeling low. Life can be hard.
It’s how I deal with my emotions and thoughts is what I need to work on.
It’s good to talk. Whether it’s face to face or on the phone.
Do you talk and off load your thoughts and feelings? If not please try, it’s so important to our mental health and well being to release our negative energies and hear that we are not alone.